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Nevertheless, God's solid foundation stands firm, sealed with this inscription: "The Lord knows those who are his." (2 Tim 2:19a)

I am the Lord's. God's solid foundation stands firm. My faith will stand firm because it is built upon the perfect sacrifice of Jesus Christ.

To describe the feelings mulling around inside of me right now would take up much too much space. I have been blessed with the opportunity to go and do my Masters degree at Simon Fraser University in Global Health (Population and Public Health). I start on September 4th.

I shared some of what preparation for graduation has stirred within me--the personal struggles, excitements, and doubts-- at CCF sharing night tonight. Tonight was my last official CCF program as an UW undergrad...it was also the longest program I have ever attended. Maybe God was looking out for me, because He knew that I didn't want it to end. In one moment, I am laughing. In the next, I am crying. What will life be like away from this spiritual safe-place? Will I be able to maintain the close bonds that God has nurtured here...bonds that have helped transform me into who I am today?

This term has felt like an emotional rollercoaster. Yet through everything -- through jubilation, excitement, fear, and doubt alike -- God has remained constant. He has asked me to trust Him. He is trustworthy. There is none like Him. No other is more suitable to entrust my future to than Him.

My Lord knows that my heart needs peace. He has gently whispered away Satan's lies, and reaffirmed the path I have chosen. How gracious are you, O Lord, that you patiently walk with me as I go in circles...waiting on the fringe before deciding I can trust you. I do trust you Lord. I believe! And yet, I know that I must ask you, like the man asking Jesus to heal his sick daughter -- "I believe Lord! Help me with my unbelief."

I am vulnerable and weak, Lord. And yet, I am exactly where I need to be. Putty in your hands. Have your way with me, God. Take me, and make me yours. Take this tender heart of mine, and heal it. Take this small faith, and let it grow to move mountains. For I feel I don't yet have even a mustard seed. Yet Jesus, if you ask me, I will walk on water to get to you. Just tell me once again of your faithfulness and might.