~ Captivated ~

Your laughter it echoes like a joyous thunder
Your whisper it warms me like a summer breeze
Your anger is fiercer than the sun in its splendour
You’re close and yet full of mystery
Ever since the day that I saw Your face
Try as I may, I cannot look away, I cannot look away…

Captivated by You
I am captivated by You
May my life be one unbroken gaze
Fixed upon the beauty of Your face

Beholding is becoming, so as You fill my gaze
I become more like You and my heart is changed
Beholding is becoming, so as You fill my view
Transform me into the likeness of You

This is what I ask, for all my days
That I may, never look away, never look away…
No other could ever be as beautiful
No other could ever steal my heart away
I just can’t look away…

[Vicky Beeching]

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Last weekend I went to my last winter retreat as a CCFer. It was cold, and then too hot, and then there were hornets (don't even ask)...and I just wanted to go home. But thank the Lord I didn't. The Spirit utterly rocked that premises. Thank you Jesus for speaking to me. Thank you Jesus for seeing me - all of me - and loving me the same. Thank you for interrupting my self down-ward spiral of circle walking. I can walk straight now because my eyes are back on you. I am not worthy to look at you my Lord - it is only possible by grace - and yet you died just so I could look directly at you. And so I will. I don't know how...but you are faithful. You will show me how. Just don't let me look away again Lord - living a life with artificial fruit. I am free from the bondage of sin. I am free because I am no longer condemned. Help me to live this freedom - freedom to walk this life eye-to-eye every single moment beside you. Amen.

...lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

~Hebrews 12: 1-2