~Re-fill~

Last night at CCF was great...it was great because God is awesome. I arrived at CCF very tired, both in mind and body. I was happy to be there but felt a sense of "disconnect" from the huge crowd...in one of those rare moods (for me at least) that I just want to walk around campus aimlessly and pray by myself.

As a side-note, I had a wonderful 3-hour conversation with Vicki last night in the wee hours that made a lot of things clear...it's so great to have a friend like that who I can share with openly, and who will share back equally open. Thanks Vicki! In rambling last night, I realized that university has really taught me to think, and that I was never a "thinking person" in high school...school for me involved virtually no thinking, but here, I mysteriously started spending more time in reflection about philisophical things - which weirded me out, because hey! All those tests say I'm 100% extroverted! I certainly don't think that's true anymore...

Anyhow, back to last night, and me in my "introverted mood". We had a Bible study about revelation from God. It became apparent to me why Jesus was often so cryptic in his teachings...because He understands how people work. They want to figure things out...even NEED to figure things out for themselves. But they can't figure out Absolute Truth on their own. So he gives them something to chew on, and they can come to a place where they are vulnerable to the Holy Spirit, who reveals to them the Truth.

I know this may seem elementary to some, and I knew most of this already, but to have it articulated so succinctly made me understand one more trait of Jesus that had previously confused me (i.e. "Then he told them not to tell anyone he was the Christ"). And so, I can once again tick off an item on my prayer list -- that in studying His word last night, that I would learn something important.

It's so cool! That's why I could read a passage in the Bible and it will sometimes only 'click' after reading it over a couple years later...because the Spirit has His timing, even with what He wants us to understand.

Wow....