~ The Wimped-out Wimp ~

Wow...I must apologize to anybody who actually reads this...I completely forgot about my blog lately!! Sorry =(

Okay, so I am self-declaring myself as a "wimped-out wimp"...what is that do you ask? I am a wimp who is tired of being a wimp! Praise GOD!! HE has been so gracious to me. HE has transformed my very inner being...and let me tell you, it might have happened very quickly, but HE has working on me for about 15 years up to the climax point. You may know that I have been plagued with fear throughout my life. Maybe it's just my perception of others, but I do believe that in the past, I have been more crippled and controlled by my fears than the majority of people...but I could be wrong. In any case, after a series of events occurred and culminated last term (ask in person), GOD went "BAM!" and gave me absolutely no choice but face all the fears I've been running from my whole life all at once. It made me understand that following verse:

Get yourself ready! Stand up and say to them whatever I command you. Do not be terrified by them, or I will terrify you before them.
~Jeremiah 1:17

Did GOD ever terrify me!! But it worked, and from the inside out, God began to liberate me from the prison I had created for myself. For the first time in my life, I began to experience a new part of the freedom that God offers to His children, bought with the blood of Jesus.

Flash forward: I went to see the movie "Ju-on: The Grudge" last weekend...a friend of mine really wanted to see it, so I went along to the cheapie theatre. I shouldn't have! I've never been so scared by a movie! When I get scared, I tremble. When we walked out to my car in the cold night, I was shaking in my boots, wondering how I could possibly drive. I went for a scare, and a scare is certainly what I got! The first night was full of nightmares. I woke up very early in the morning and fell back asleep, to get lost in another round of restless sleep. I was running...running away...as usual, yes, run...that's what I always do in dreams....run, run...but wait, I'm tired of running...tired of being afraid. I was in an old sort of castle and spun around in my dream on my predator. Again I ran...but this time, I ran right at it! I ran it straight out of the room, down the stairs, out of sight!

Why am I telling you about a silly dream? Because I want to share with you God's amazing power...his power of transformation, to change a person even to the level of their subconscious...of their very nature. You see, I have never in my dreaming life confronted an enemy. All of those sleepless childhood years I spent running away. I believe that the dreams of the subconscious are a window allowing a person to see into their own psychie. And what I saw in this dream was a changed person...a person who handed in their running shoes to God and told Him to never give them back.

May you also experience the wonderful liberation from your own prisons, whether they be fear, doubt, guilt, anger, hate, bitterness...you name it! God WILL change you...sooner or later, with or without your cooperation. I suggest you cooperate, or HE will terrify you, like He did to me!!