The King has returned!

No, no, I'm not talking about Lord of the Rings =P I'm sure you may have noticed the stressful undertone in recent blogs. Lately, I've figured some stuff out about myself and my faith, and ever since, I feel full again! What a wonderful feeling, for God to have finally shown me what it is that has kept my heart unsettled this term. I am so thankful now that I know what it is and I can deal with it accordingly. Thank you Jesus!

Sorry that was cryptic... you can ask me about it in person if you wish. Speaking of cryptic, last week in cell group, Sophia posed the question, "Who is Jesus to you?" A lot of things came in my mind. He is my model of who I should be. He is the best friend anybody could ever have. He is a humble servant, who lowers himself below me to meet my needs. He loves like no other person has ever loved or will ever love. But you know, another thing that came to my mind is that he can be downright confusing and cryptic! Often the disciples asked him, "Why can you not speak to us plainly?" and sometimes I wonder the same. Sometimes I feel like if he just right out and said things, there would not be so much division, even in the church over interpretations and stuff. But then again, maybe he had to speak like that to live long enough to gain enough of a following for His purpose to be effective. A method of self-preservation perhaps?

Of course, most of the parables are relatively easy to understand, and paint wonderful pictures in practical and tangible ways of how life should be lived. Where I sometimes get confused is when Jesus changes characters in the parables... like "I am the gate" and then "I am the shephard". More than his words though, I sometimes sit and wonder about his actions. Sometimes it seems like the disciples are just trying to help, like bringing him a glass of water, but he rebukes them all of a sudden. I guess it must just be that he can either read our minds or sense our motives (I'm still not clear on his earthly abilities on that matter), so he sees that first. Maybe?

I always figured that somebody who is perfect would also be predictable, but Jesus definitely isn't, at least to me. I guess that just once again tells me that as human beings, we can't even begin to comprehend certain things, including perfection. Does a day go by that even a fleeting selfish thought doesn't taint our minds?

Anyways, I probably should get on with things. Just ponderings...

A picture for you (see above)!