--Winding down--

I can't believe it's the second last day of April. For me, time in general always seems to pass very quickly, but at the same time, events a couple months ago feel like years ago, especially when a lot of events and activities are crammed into them. This month of April has been very busy for me. I am looking foward to getting back to Waterloo, though I'm going to miss Amanda, and Annie and Roger. I am getting excited about next year's committee, and how God will work through us to drive the fellowship. After two meetings, the roles have been decided, and I will be serving as the communications person. It is actually kind of cool how this came to be. Let me explain.

When I was initially reading about the various roles and praying about them, I thought that vice-chair was the best role for me. It is a role that drives evangelism and outreach in CCF, which is my highest agenda for the fellowship. I couldn't really see myself in any other role, though I was open to most of them. I knew that program co-ordinator wasn't for me, because I really get hung up on details, and I knew that the position would stress me out to the max. Besides, I don't believe I am creative enough to innovate new ideas for Friday night. I never even really thought about communications because I figured that I "had too much vision for a role like that" (the words of my own thoughts). In the aftermath of Sunday night, when I was working on Monday and thinking about our deliberations about chair, I felt God speak to me. Since both people running for chair were also passionate about outreach, it would not be as crucial for vice-chair to hold the chair accountable on that issue. My thinking is also not complementary, but rather mostly the same as that of the chair. I suddenly felt a prompting towards communications. Still, I said to myself, "But I have more vision to offer than that!" Then it occured to me, and I'm sure that God must have been smiling and nodding, saying to Himself, "Now she finally understands..." As Sam and Eric both said, the committee is made up of seven equals, each who bring a piece of vision to the table. Just because I am in a different doesn't mean I have any less say in the vision. I really enjoy and am not intimidated of speaking to people. I like passing on ideas and getting people pumped up about an idea. I truly believe that how involved the whole fellowship is involved in the vision is directly proportional to the health of the fellowship and its members. I also have the admin experience that goes along with the job. Being in this position will also allow me to help drive another thing that is close to my heart, and that's making CCF seen on campus, as well as dissolving some of the myths that surround it (ie: CCF is ONLY for Chinese people). Yes, Chinese is part of the title, and it is obvious that the large majority of the fellowship will remain Chinese, and rightly so. There is comfort and stability in common background and cultural community. What I am concerned about is that people considering attending a fellowship would shy away from CCF simply because they think that they would feel awkward and/or wouldn't be accepted there. Personally, I have trouble even convincing my Caucasian Christian friends to attend, because they think it is too exclusive. This is an issue that has been largely unaddressed in the past, perhaps because a large portion of the membership come from Chinese churches, and CCF is simply an extension of what they already know. Yes, of course there are other fellowships that people can attend. The truth of the matter is, however, that it is very unlikely that a non-believer would ever try out any fellowship alone without being brought along by a friend, and I'm sure that mostly every CCF member has friends who are not Chinese, be it classmates, housemates, or high school acquaintances.

Wow, it'll never cease to amaze me just how much writing helps me to articulate the jumble of thoughts that float around inside my head! =P Blessings